today was….. just another shit day for me. i know its always same shit different day. but i guess i just couldnt take it anymore,thus this blogpost.
truth…. im feeling like i’ve lost myself. lost myself to the expectations i have for myself, the expectations from my job and everyone else. i can hardly make decisions by myself anymore, i cannot trust myself 100% to make decisions and even though i am sure im right (or almost sure), theres always a part of me doubting myself. whichever decision i make, i will always wonder. its so tiring…. really hate myself now because of this. i was never such a person. always used to just do what i think was right, and never looked back. but now.. i cant seem to be like that anymore.
sometimes…. im really afraid i might have a heart attack because of work.. that feeling when my heart is pumping so hard and fast but i cant seem to slow it down… it really makes me scared.
stolencupcakes 